I know I always post up negative posts and stuff, but you know I really feel pretty good today. My break is almost over sadly.. but even though it’s been such a rough break,it made me realize that no matter how bad things can get, there are a lot of people out there that support you.

Ever since the news broke that we were closing down the restaurant, there has been a lot of tears. Many regular customers were very upset hearing the news - hell I saw a few tear up. And even though I don’t really know who they are, many of them said, “If there is anything I can do to help, please let me know. Here is my name and phone number.” Many of them even said, “I really hope you open a new restaurant! If you do please call!”

I don’t know. It just really warms my heart. Even though I have bitch ass relatives that don’t even support what I’m doing or let alone my dad opening a new restaurant, I know at least that there are so many people around me that support me.

One customer earlier told me, “You know, I give you a lot of credit, because you’ve done so much for your dad ever since your mom passed away. You travel from Chicago and South Bend to school, and you help your dad out on the weekends, and yet you still maintain a 4.0 GPA.” It’s just nice to feel acknowledged… and you know.. I feel pretty damn proud of myself.

Recently I just looked through our newspaper website, and there’s a section that talks about restaurants closing and opening - the latest gossip. I saw so many comments asking whether we were closing or moving to another location. Word spreads so fast… I saw a lot of disappointed people and many of them even said that it was their favorite restaurant. I know that we’re most likely going to open another restaurant with the same name in a different location, so I really hope all these customers wait for us!

I really want to give thanks to all those who supported my dad and I. It really brings a smile to my face. :)

Well I guess from an update of the current situation. The god damn landlord tried to sue us and in the end we ended up winning the case. He probably thought we were stupid and probably wouldn’t of gotten a lawyer. We counter sued him saying that he never even bothered to fix the restaurant when we needed him to. For instance - My restaurant is underground (as in a basement) and the building is old, therefore when there are pipe problems, all the water goes to us. We’ve had a lot of water problems this year and have had to close many days because of it. I remember my dad calling the landlord and he never even bothered to answer the phone. Hell my dad even went up in the pipes and tried to fix them himself… and fell off the ladder and slit his hand open. We rushed him to the hospital and he got stitches.. we thought the working insurance would cover it but they wouldn’t because he’s the “owner” and not an “employee.” Fucking Bull Shit. This was back in May… and I remember specifically that we had to close for about 1-2 weeks because of the water damage. Ever since then our business dropped dramatically for whatever reason. If the landlord would have done his fucking job, all of this would have been most likely avoided. Last year he also didn’t even bother to clean the parking lot when it was covered with three inches of ice. We had to go out and buy the salt ourselves and clean up the lot. There were also many other occasions where he’s never showed up or bothered to fix the things we’ve requested. Cheap Ass Mother Fucker.

I currently don’t know how much longer we’re going to be at the restaurant. Apparently we have till the end of January… which is very soon. The thing is that the landlord WANTS us to resign because he knows that no one wants to buy our space - it’s a piece of shit (even though we make it look prettyful). Though if we resign we have to put a $27,000 down payment and then rent will be $2000 a month. How bullshit is that? Sounds stupid. My dad said no and wants to get the fuck out of the place. It feels nice to screw someone over.

Nonetheless, we currently are technically “winning” the case, so the landlord is pretty scared. We are now trying to get him to PAY US. We took a ton of things out of the restaurant and if he wants the place, he’s going to have to pay for all of the appliances etc. I recently did inventory for the restaurant and am going to do the estimation of each item.

I guess once the restaurant is gone, we are going to possibly try to open another restaurant. The location is going to be a lot better and hopefully a better fucking landlord. We will see what happens~ I really hope 2011 will be a better year.

So it’s kind of official. The restaurant is probably going to be gone by the end of January. I’m about 97% sure. I guess it’s a good and bad thing… I’m trying to look at it in a positive point of view but I can’t. I kind of feel like I’m losing something that is very dear to me - like losing a big part of me. But I know that the future will be a lot better than this situation.

To continue the story of my god damn life - the god damn landlord is suing my dad. Court is on the 22nd of this month. Just a few days before Christmas and my dad’s birthday. It just really upsets me that we’ve come so far yet we’re ending it on a bad note. The landlord is basically trying to evict us with nothing for us to spare. When my mom died he said the rent would be $3500 when the original price was $4000. Which was very nice of him at the time. Later business slowly went down and sometimes we had to pay less because otherwise we wouldn’t be able to afford it, but he never said anything about it and accepted it. He was being “nice” about it and that it was okay and blah blah. Since the contract was up he wanted all that money back so in the end he wants us to pay $90,000. WTF. How the fuck do we owe 90,000 fucking dollars? So after lowering the rent and shit he expected to pay back 90,000 dollars. First it DOESN’T add up to 90,000 and SECOND we have bank fucking statements, bitch. At the same time he wants us to RESIGN the contract because he wants us to stick around. For one he KNOWS that no one is going to buy our spot of the building only because it’s OLD and NO ONE can afford to BUY it. It’s just more ways to screw us over.

You know, since my dad’s restaurant is underground and the building is old - we’ve had a lot of pipe problems and a lot of leaks. My dad has tried to fix them many of times - fell off ladders - cut his finger, twist his ankle etc… Of course not that much damage because my dad is a strong guy, but the building itself is the LANDLORD’S problem. He never bothered to fix any of that shit. In other words - he doesn’t give a shit.

It confuses me that he seems to can’t wrap his head around the fact that business has been slow and that we can’t AFFORD it along with the fact that HE WANTS US TO STAY. As much as I LOVE to stay because it’s a big chunk of my HEART, I can’t. =\ And I must say that it really really hurts. He’s such a dirty person…. such a FUCKING LIAR. I GAVE HIM MY FUCKING BOND.

So the court hearing is the 22nd and we have to move a bunch of our stuff out… the landlord also claimed that he wanted to also keep the PIANO that was there too.. even though it’s my MOM’S PIANO. Fucking bullshit.

On top of all of this all of my teachers SUCK this quarter. They’re all stupid and retarded and I haven’t learned jack shit. Of course I can’t tell my dad that because I don’t want him to feel like I wasted all of my time and money on a school that just out right sucks even though it’s top 10 in the states >_>. No one understands or believes in me on what I want to do - concept artist. They all think I’m retarded or stupid.

My dad says that once he files for bankruptcy that I have to support him and I have to find a job. Build my credit etc… have everything under my name. That’s another thing… I LOVE my dad to death… but again as I mentioned before… I wish I was one of those regular college students who didn’t have to worry about their parents and are able to move out of the house… go somewhere far… travel around the world and what not. And I don’t want to leave my dad behind like that but at the same time I feel very restricted =\ And I feel like if I leave him behind, I’d be a bad daughter. I’m not going to be like my sister. I don’t want to hear the words, “I’m sorry I couldn’t give you a better life,” ever again.

Sometimes I really really despise my life and I know that things can always be worse. I’ve cried everyday so far and I still try to manage to put a smile on my face for people =\ I guess everyone has a story… some may be better than others and some worse.. There’s just a lot of stuff going through my mind and I can’t seem to collect my thoughts… I guess I will end here…

Well I don’t know. Today be a Friday and it’s super super slow. It’s crazy how horrible this year was for business. It wasn’t even like a steady drop - it was more like a sudden drop. I mean yeah last year was slow but it wasn’t nearly as slow as this year. I get that the economy is bad, but jesus. It can’t just suddenly get worse like that. On top of that things in the restaurants have been breaking down and shit. But today is probably the worst Friday I’ve ever encountered business wise. It makes me sad.

Another bitch thing that happened today was a lady called the restaurant and asked, “Hi, are you the restaurant that is next to Martin’s?” Mind you the place she’s talking about is the restaurant RIGHT BEHIND US - New China. I tell her no we’re the one by Peddler’s Pub, blah blah blah. She continues and asks, “Oh. Well do you know the name of the restaurant I’m talking about? Because I’ve been looking everywhere and I don’t know what it’s called.” I’m like, “Ma’am did you not comprehend the question you just asked me? It’s equivalent to asking McDonald’s where Burger King is located. Why would I tell you my competitor’s location?” Stupid dumb bitch. Seriously what the fucking fuck.

You know I understand why people go to New China (even though their food is gross). They’re cheap for one thing, and they give you fried rice instead of white rice! 8D Reason we don’t do it is because we treat fried rice as a meal and we actually MAKE our fried rice. On top of that we make our food from the freshest and finest ingredients. We make our food from scratch essentially. I find it hilarious that people will be 5 bucks for stupid coffee at Starbucks, but won’t even pay that much for actual FOOD. Apparently New China is expanding. It’s annoying as fuck. We were here in this area first >_> 

At the same time I want the keep the restaurant and another part of me wants to give it up. I feel like if I gave it up, it would be less stressful, but at the same time I won’t get to see friends and family as often. I don’t really know. I recently made menus for my dad because all the menus were old. The ones I’ve made were pretty nice and I’ve wasted about fifty bucks of my own money to print them out. Now my dad doesn’t want me to print them out anymore and not even bother to use them. It’s annoying and I wish he would have told me earlier not to do it… I wanted to make them look nice and advertise using my own money and hopefully get more business in, but he just seems like he’s already giving up.

On a different note, I’m so close to graduating that it’s scary. I wish I wasn’t in the situation where I have to worry about my dad. I wish I was one of the kids who were able to leave home and go to college - be on their own and not have to worry about their parents. After I graduate I just really hope I’m able to find a good job and stay relatively close to home. I feel guilty if I left him behind. I don’t want to be like my sister and not give a damn about family. My dad is all I got left.

Lately every morning my dad wakes me up by talking to me about the whole situation with the restaurant. It annoys me - I’d rather not wake up with a negative note. For once I’m actually kind of glad that I’m in class… How sad is that. School I guess really isn’t all that bad since I get to see my Chicago friends and hang out with them. It’s just such of a hassle taking the train back and forth. I don’t know how I feel about the whole restaurant situation other than I hate our landlord. Like if we were to get rid of the restaurant, I don’t know where my dad would go to work. Then again it could be a good thing and he could find another job where we make more money and our lifestyle would be a lot more easier. I don’t know. At the same time I have a big problem of letting go something that is dearest to me. Yes, it’s just a place, but it’s also my home and the place where I get to see my fellow employees who are considered my family. I wish business was better… =\ Hopefully things will be better later, but things can always get worse.

So I’m at work at the moment and this one girl whose weird as fuck decides that she’s gonna go play the piano (we have a piano at the restaurant :3). But the thing is that piano is kind of off limits and it’s not like I’m going to plaster a sign on it that says “Do Not Touch.” She’s playing that stupid Inu Yasha theme song by BoA or whatever and ugh it just sounds AWFUL. Not to mention that the piano is way out of tune because it’s old and we haven’t had the time to fix it. It’s also my mom’s piano so we’ve put candles, flowers, her pictures - memorial stuff on the piano. It’s not plastered throughout the piano, it’s just on top of the case - it’s tasteful even though it’s a memoriam. I mean it’s her piano and I don’t like people touching it. But ugh I would hope that the parents would maybe LOOK and be like, “Hey, honey. Let’s not disturb the other customers.” But no they just let her go right ahead and play the piano with her god awful skills. She’s only like 15 maybe? She wasn’t even eating because she wasn’t hungry. And just to be an extra bitch, she was ugly as fuck - especially with her hair all over her face. Go get some anti-frizz and a brush plox » Open your eyes and maybe look at all the random pictures that’s on the piano and the memorial note. Bitch.

All I ever write is stuff that annoys or bothers me - it’s just easy to just blog it out I guess. Maybe I should write more happy things instead…

You know I never really had a problem with Jewish people and I’m going to start by saying that most Jewish people are very kind. But there are SOME that are just pure stereotypical and are just pure greedy ass bitches. The landlord, for instance, of my dad’s restaurant. Ugh he’s such a terrible man. He’s SO RICH and he’s so GREEDY along with CHEAP. Yes, we owe him money, but my thing is in his words he says, “Don’t worry about it. I understand that you’re going through a tough time with losing someone in the family and blah blah blah.” And of course he twists his words around later. I need someone to shoot this man in the face. Stupid filthy rich son of a fucking bitch. He gives Jews a terrible name. Don’t get me wrong though. Jewish people are smart and they invest very well - and again most of them are nice. Hell one of our good friends is Jewish and he is extremely nice and tries to help my dad and I out. But this son of a bitch needs a bitch slap to the face >_> Because we now have to get a lawyer to make sure the next contract we sign (maybe) has no twists and shit within the words. Ugh. ANNOYING.

On the side note. My eyes be bloodshot red and I am extremely tired from black friday shopping. Drew, Blake, and I went to bitch ass Wal Mart because they wanted a new 32 inch tv for 200 bucks. Not bad of a deal - but we were there at midnight just to get a wrist band at 2 a.m which ended up being a lot later…. and then leave the store to take about an hour nap and come right back at 4:30 a.m. to wait in line AGAIN to make sure we got the tv… @_@ Then went to the mall to get some boots and a few clothes and then back home and sleep for about 2 1/2 hours…. and then get up to go to work :< Damn you Black Friday. Tirrreeedzzzz qq…..

Apparently it’s hard for people to call me and let me know exactly what their plans are. Every fucking time because it ruins MY plans. It screws me over all the time. My friends are retarded.

On top of that note. Sarah Palin is a dumb cunt - along with the rest of her bitch ass family. Bristol Palin isn’t even considered a “star” and yet she’s on that stupid Dancing with the Stars show. She’s consecutively gotten low marks and she’s made it to the finals. wtf. There are not that many Palin lovers in this country to support her fat ass

http://www.tmz.com/2010/11/17/bristol-palin-dancing-with-the-stars-man-shotgun-television-tv-wisconsin-steven-cowen/?ewrd

So today I went to Staples to print some menus out. This girl named “Joy” helped me out, and must I say, she’s a fucking airhead. What kinda ticked me off was that she was like, “Oh! Are these going to be for the new restaurant opening down the road??? (Hibachi Grill)” And I explain to her no, that these were for the restaurant right down the road… And she goes “Oh! You mean New China Buffet??? Cuz I loooove Chinese food! I go there all the time!” Ugh wow. I wanted to punch her in the face right there. New China Buffet is the stupid restaurant that’s right behind us. For whatever fucking reason they decided they wanted to put their business right behind another Chinese restaurant. Morons. Nasty Food that’s been sitting out there for hours. Shit our location was there from the beginning anyways - since 21 years and 32 fucking years in business >_> Anyways. That girl was retarded and she needed to be bitch slapped in the face. kewlz.